The Scream

Do any of you guys out there know anything about dream interpretation?  For a long time now (several years, in fact) I have been experiencing some of the most intense dreams of my life.  All of the dreams are extremely vivid, and they usually include strong emotions.  And by strong emotions, I mean, like emotional content that make me wake up feeling spent.  In the dream I am either usually really, really scared, angry, frustrated, sad, or some combination of those.  But not just like a bad dream.  I’m not really sure how to describe them, except that sometimes the content is so….horrifying….I wake up and I’m literally shaking, or crying, or yelling.  Also, usually in the dream, I am trying desperately to speak to someone…either to beg, to yell, to scream, just to talk even, and my jaw is locked.  I literally can not open my mouth to talk to the person.  I have to struggle to speak around my own clenched teeth.  I also often have no voice.  I have the clenched jaw and I have to struggle for sound to come out. 

I’ve been in enough therapy over the years, and enough psychology classes to get the overall big picture here…I have something to say, but I can’t say it, no one is hearing me, blah blah blah….I’m keeping all my emotions bottled up inside….but I really don’t know what that is all about, because I really don’t feel like I have a lot of unaddressed anger or sadness right now.  It is really blowing my mind. 

I saw this thing in Best Buy called Zeo Sleep Manager.  It’s this headband thing you wear and it transmits info to your iPhone.  I’m thinking about getting it…..cheaper than a sleep study, but maybe it would lend some insight into my jacked up brain…